Just another BIRTH-date..

Alhamdulillah...

I must thank my Umi for the courage to giving birth to this girl whom later growing this big.. lol.. I must thank my Abah for the responsibility he took when he started hearing my cries for the first time.. He should have know that my dosa will be debited into his account till the day I get married.. But Abah still let Umi keep me alive in her womb for 9 months plus-plus..

Gosh... Nothing new about that.. 

In these years.. the quarter-ly I've managed to survive and breathe, I met many kind of people which directly and indirectly shaped me to be who I am today. 

I must be thankful to them, indeed. 

Live is about networking.. You know a person..whom happened to be your colleague's schoolmate, who later married to your universiti-mate, and his brother is actually your acquaintance, and so and so and so on... What a coincidence! 

But it's not, like Umi always repeat. 

"No coincidence..It's Allah's decision to make it happened."

Hurm...Okey.. No-Thing a coincident, I conclude later.

Even when the winner of all sperms that made it through Umi's ovum and taraaaaaaaaa... 

(Me was born!)

That is surely not a coincidence. Naaa.. The sperms were doing some competition among them.. lol.

03.03.1987

0106 hours

Venue: University Hospital

i am now 25 years, 25 hours, and 25 minutes..

How cool is that?

and the number wont stop...till my last breath..

Woaaa... Nothing cooler than that!

Now I'm gonna start to think about 

WHAT WILL I BE 25 YEARS FROM NOW??

A granny maybe?? What? My daughter get married and have child earlier than I am? This can't be!

A super hot Mak Long whom never gave birth but living with the most sporting Husband and we were voted as favourite uncle and aunty?? This is one nice option

A grumpy old lady??? Naaah.. that doesnt sound like me.

Huh... This is tough.. 25 years ago I never imagine I will be someone like I am now.. and why a baby would be thinking about her future after all??? You're ridiculous la Farahanani..

On top of that.. I must remember that I am just a servant. 

Farahanani must remember to say;

Alhamdulillah.... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah..

For all these Nikmat that You granted me.. 

The Nikmat of being a Muslimah.. 

The Nikmat of being me.. 

The Nikmat of living in this so-called peaceful Malaysia..lol.

The Nikmat of being in this family who love me so much even they dont show it.. 

The Nikmat of breathing.. the free air that doesnt require any monthly fees..

Alhamdulillah.... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah..

Okey.. Enough talking.. 

Good day to you my dear reader (If there is any) I am too happy to be angry or upset.

Now is the age for chasing my dreams!!!!! 

Please chase your dreams too, it's satisfying. Trust me!

and dont ask me why I deactivate my facebook. Its my birthday..not yours.. lalalalalalala

Jiwa Yang Terusik

Salam..

Bagaimana kah Hari Jumaat kamu? 

Malam tadi selepas menonton Ustaz Don menangis bercerita tentang Rasulullah.. Aku langsung terus tertidur.. Terlena bagai di dodoi oleh alunan suara yang merdu merintih merindukan Rasulullah. Terima Kasih Ustaz Don atas peringatan Ustaz itu.. Tak ramai orang kat Malaysia ni macam Ustaz.. Jadi guna kan lah peluang yang Ustaz ada itu dengan sebaik-baiknya..

Oh ya.. Bercakap pasal Ustaz Don.. memang tak boleh tengok rancangan beliau lama-lama.. Boleh bikin jiwa ini gusar.. Boleh buat jiwa ini jatuh cinta dengan Ustaz Don.. Jadi untuk mengelakkan fitnah, bila tengok rancangan Ustaz Don Daniyal.. Telinga je dengar.. Tapi mata kena pandang ke tempat lain..

Astaghfirullahalazim... !

Pei Pan kalau baca ni mesti nak mengusik cakap aku dah jumpa Imam Muda yang di cari.. 

Malangnya bukan begitu.. Saya belum jumpa lagi Imam yang sudi nak bimbing saya dan sudi take over tugas menanggung dosa-dosa saya daripada Abah saya... 

Somewhere in Kedah. cant recall the place real name..

Ustaz Don telah mengusik spiritual part of me dengan tazkirah beliau..  Kerana beliau kelihatan sangat khusyuk menyampaikan peringatan buat penonton.. Sampai berair mata beliau cerita pasal kisah kewafatan Nabi. Cerita yang sama telah ku dengar berulang kali.. Tapi belum pernah se emosi begini..dan ia berlaku live di TV Malaysia! 

Kalau ada penonton oversea yang tengok..mesti orang ingat semua orang kat Malaysia ni baik-baik..suci.. dan beriman.. Insya Allah! Daulah Islamiyah akan wujud di Malaysia suatu hari nanti..

Sebagaimana Ustaz Azhar Idrus yang telah mengusik praktikal part of me dengan penjelasan-penjelasan beliau kepada soalan yang di ajukan kepada beliau.. Seriously, soalan yang orang tanya dekat UAI (Huh,, nasib tak eja UIA) selalunya sangat kelakar. Tapi Ustaz rileks je dan slumber je jawab dengan jawapan yang praktikal tapi rasa macam kena ketuk dekat dahi.. Lol..

Sesungguhnya hati ini telah terusik..begitu juga dengan jiwa ku.. Aku sepatutnya kembali kepada Tuhan dengan bekalan amalan dan ingatan yang jitu kepada Allah dan Rasul-Nya.. Sesungguhnya ya Allah.. Aku belum bersedia....

Wallahua'lam..

Inner Thoughts

I believe, a man, when he loves a woman..

He will do what ever it takes just to meet that woman.

Just to check her well-being..

and that's just enough for me,

if a guy do so for me,

I'll definitely be his woman.

But if a guy, choose Allah over me,

Answer Allah's calling for praying before my call,

I'll definitely be his wife.


(FH thinks marriage is a therapy for Muslim singles. But make sure we choose the right one to spend money and time with.. ^__^)